Korea Trip Day 0 Singapore->Taiwan->KOREA->OUR Mapo-gu office APARTMENT *Tired but very happy*

MY LUGGAGE

 
I'M GOING KOREA WITH ANTRICIAAAAAAAAA

I think I just "killed" myself with so many schedules(average of 2 places to go each day) from the day after last EXAM ended to the day before the Korea trip. I squeezed my midnight to finalize again(after Antricia and I confirmed the places we will be going in Korea) our itinerary and also, how to get there. It took me quite some time to find the stations from the SUBWAY MAP and also search for directions online. I did it till the very last night(16th dec) in Singapore,. On 17th dec when I'm suppose to meet Antricia at the airport in the morning, I'm totally exhausted. Argh, and so sorry for the delay in finalizing the itenerary.

I guess this expressions make a good description in the super long plane flight from Singapore to Korea+the traffic jam(aka plane jam)... HAHAHAHAHA

Setting off from Singapore by SCOOT~~~~ Our dinner is a whole packet of bread, and biscuits~THE BREAD Antricia's bought is super tastyyyyyyyyy~~~~

The changing sky~~~~

~~~~Transiting in Taiwan~~~~ My first time breathing Taiwan Air~~~lol for only 1 hour/ lesser and we went back into plane and our plane got stuck in the plane queue(Plane jam) for 45minutes because there is one lane opened for planes to fly out of Taoyuan airport. It was on the number 10 row OAO

When we reached Incheon International Airport, it's already very late at night on 18th December. First thing in my mind, GET THE SUBWAY MAP from information counter~~~HAHAHAHA So the first Korean(in this trip) I spoke to in Korean was the guy at the counter. I asked for the map and he took it out and asked me where I'm going. I struggled hard to tell him that I'm not using the subway now and I just wanna keep it. lol stupid girl.
Oh and then we waited for our host's husband is come fetch us to the apartment blah blah blah
It was so awkward to pass him the presents immediately after he helped us with the luggage, OmO. It was a complete silent in the car... except for the navigation voice. I wanted to try to talk to him but I was too tired to think of anything and the car is way too stuffy and uncomfortable.

I LOVE THE BED SHEET COLOURS AND IT'S CHECKEREDDDD~~~Our apartment have WIFI, bed, sofa, table, maps, TV(with CABLE TV), KITCHEN(stove, Microwave oven pots, utensils, kettle, fridge, seasonings, TEA and Coffee), huge closets, Toilet, mirrors and books(I don't think we need this)... We were given Olleh Egg(it's a portable WIFI) and T-Money(Something like EZ-Link cards)... lol they have selfies pod too. THIS APARTMENT IS GOOD!!!

We actually ate cup noodles for supper(super late in the midnight) HAHAHAHAHA before sleeping~~~ We on the air conditional at home btw~~

I'm thankful for Antricia settling to flights and apartment~~~ And omg she got the TV fixed (coz it was a blank and says no connection when we opened it.) It's all been good~~~
This is my very first time involving in really planning a itinerary (Because it's KOREA)..My second time being here~~~Wa, I guess I'm so lucky on my first time in Korea, because it's a school trip, and I just have to follow them hahahaha

Unmotivated in life and everything else

I feel tired and ugly recently...
I can't seems to do anythings... I don't feel like doing any school works anymore...
Can I even pass my last semester(/trimester) of uni?  GPA of 1.sth is pathetic, is Mass Comm and PR even suitable for me? Me who have lousy English probably wun make it anywhere in that field baa. Maybe I shouldn't further study and waste all those $ for uni....should have just go some company to become their Engineer/technician using my diploma since I studied that in poly?

I have been super busy for god knows what during the holiday and even after school reopen. When will I have time to meet my old friends and what we should do when we meet? I don't know anymore sia... It seems like we all have been drifted apart and I'm not that kind of friends who will initial meet up even though I want meet he/ she/ them badly because I miss them.
I also became more and more selfish... (ugly) and keep blaming others...(I don't say it out but ya, inside my head.)
I wanna spare more and more time for myself and my things then hanging around with someone else doing nothing. but that's lonely

People used to says that "When you're working, you have money but have no time. When you're studying, you have time but have no money.''<- This is not very true for me.... I realize that I basically have no time and no money. I'm poor like shit (not working and dad is poor too so I can't just ask $ from him) and busy like hell.


I better force myself to get things done soon!

Inside out

Just watched "Inside Out" recently... It's very creative whereby they let the emotions in a person have their own characters each(each emotion was personified) and it is very easy to distinguish each of them. The very obvious looking "Fear", "Joy", "Angry", "Disgust" and "Sadness", followed by each characteristic that was assigned to each of them.

If possible, I'll like have just "Joy" and keep the rest of them in their little circle so that I wun feel fear, angry, disgust and sadness. I just love "Joy", her character can be interpreted in many different ways, but I will just interpret her as being very positive, extrovert and fun person. The rest are like... "Fear" will make me so damh paranoid... Angry will piss me off... Disgust will make feel that she's judging me for every single things I do... Talking to sadness will make me feel worst after meeting fear, angry, disgust...
See what I mean? We all need "Joy"! That's why "Joy" kept wanting to get back to the control station asap(even when "Joy" have to abandon "Sadness"... she actually once/twice abandoned "Sadness" in order to get back to the control station) in the whole movie because that girl(human) need to be happy! OUO

I feel like I'm more toward "Fear", I always imagined things(The worst case scenario...which might never happen in real life) before I experienced...
like for e.g if I didn't hold the kettle of hot water carefully, I might spill the whole thing and scald my feet(and the scary wound><). (sth like this and many more).
I'm actually a very timid person and have a lot of unnecessary thinkings.
I might looks like "Joy" or looks happy most of the time, I still have "Sadness", "Angry", "Disgust" and "Fear", just that they are mostly hidden inside me as I "smile".

The introduction of "Bing Bong"(the imaginary friend)...*A* I can totally relates to it, I used to treat all my soft toys as if they are alive and helped to voice out their voices. But... not anymore...and neither do I believe that they are alive anymore(just like Santa Claus). They are now just kept somewhere in the dark to..collect dust... Although that I don't believe anymore, they were once part of my childhood, they will remain as part of my childhood memories. (They wun disappear like Bing Bong does...)

My recent Part-time job...

I haven't been working for very very very long as I was very busy with my life and also the extremely heavy school workloads. It's only until I realized...I don't have money in my bank already.. So I was like spamming job search for part-time jobs and go interviews, and it ended up with none (coz I was too choosy or the information placed on job search website was a lie.)
Desperately, I joined Antricia as a promoter for an event (since they need one more people for the event). (I never wanted to return as a promoter since I'm terrible at talking to persuade people and the stress on have to sold off a certain numbers of items, plus the long hours of standing.)  Major thank to Antricia for introducing me to work! OUO

      SO I started off my first day being super blur but soon I got the hang of it and started to enjoy working alongside Antricia and another pro auntie promoter. I love working with them, they have made my working days so much more interesting and fun~~~~But at the same so stress up because they are very good at promoting products. It's because they worked very hard, I have to work much harder to be fair to them. I don't to be their burden... esp in sales.

      It's only till the last day of the event, I met this dramatic AUNTIE(she looks 30+years old but I shall call your AUNTIE)...Wow I'm so angry with her ><..She is only person who made me angry that day. Okies, it's also partially my fault too but she don't have to be so drama. She queued in the queue to have a taste on our drink and when it's her turn, she told me to make the drink first and reserve it for her while she went somewhere else. She says she WILL COME BACK IN 2MINUTES TIME. After 2minutes, no trace of her...After 6minutes...nope.
       Because a lot of other customers before her who told us to reserve a drink for them, they NEVER come back again and we have end up throwing away their drink. That's why I just give her drink to another customer who said he don't mind having it (since it's still warm).
      While I'm making a drink for another customer, Dramatic Auntie came back and demanded for her drink and insists that is her and argued with my "another customer".  I gave the drink to "another customer" because that is really hers! And the Dramatic Auntie began to verbally personal attack me and tell my boss to sack me lol. Waaa please, I'm just a part-timer, after this event, I wouldn't be working for them anyway, so it's fine for me. AND HE WOULDN'T SACK ME BECAUSE OF YOUR IMMATURE ACT.
      It's my fault for not waiting... but she was late in the first place, and she expect her drink to still be there? And she kept saying she's in a rush, if you're in a rush, just GO, nobody insists that you MUST collect a free drink here. What's worse is...you're not even someone who is interested in the product, you're just one of the people out there who wanna have a free drink. So if every customers wanna reserve a drink and come back later, my table will be full of cups of drink!!!<-I can't serve other customers who can drink immediately because my table is so full ley!
     Tbh, after Dramatic Auntie went off, the following customer was like criticizing Dramatic Auntie for being so impatient and immature and she told me that she understand my situation and patient wait for me to make her her drink. *omg Hi5!* Whoever you are, thank you, you've made my day! ^W^

     On a side note, I guess I should never work as a promoter for something which I will never even drink/eat, coz I don't even have the basic knowledge of the taste of it and I don't even like it and don't understand why so many people drink that. Just like asking someone who don't drink Coffee at all have to promote and sell coffee.

     Urgh my feet are dying from more than 2x 12hrs of working with heels (because that's the only formal shoes I have) while on last day of work I just wear my boots (it's black and at least it's shorter) and it decided to spoilt on that time~~~ OAO I'm so glad that this job have finally come to an end due to my dying feet.

    I have worked for so many part-time job before and I never get to sit down while working. I'm still searching for part-time job...Still thinking when can I actually find a part-time job where I can at least sit down/ don't have to stand throughout the whole time.


*Time to continue my Documentary production assignment and revision for my upcoming exam this week*

At times, I'm unreasonably stubborn

At times, I'm unreasonably stubborn...
I guess I was too harsh recently. I shouldn't be so stubborn about clothes colour~~
Afterall, it's only 49days (according to other relatives)~~~ Bare with it, and it'll be over soon~~
*Smile* OUO

Colours I cannot wear for 100days

*Talk about colours I cannot wear for 100days due to the mourning of my grandpa's death*
Initially, it's only red and pink.(I understand since it's a happy colours and colours for Chinese News Year.) And then slowly list out the remaining colours day by day(after she washed clothes) my mum was like "you cannot wear purple, brown, orange and yellow since they are part of red too."
Oh wait... YELLOW????????????IT HAVE NOT RELATIONS WITH REDDDDDDDDD
Yellow cannot, but Green can... *Irony right?*
Red and Pink is definitely probably part of the traditions but the rest is like set by Mum herself or sth.

The complains a lot of friends said during Poly, "I don't what to wear everyday."
I never have this problem coz I used to wear whatever clothes I wanna wear, I have a choice and I can choose. Until recently, I have to stand in front of my wardrobe everyday searching for the suitable but nice clothes to wear OAO for don't know how long then decide what to wear... This is when I'm so restricted to colours and having a colourful "wardrobe" doesn't help. (But I love being colourful)
Now I treasure that time when I can choose the colour/s I wanna wear >A<

Grandpa I still love you but I'm not gonna bare with unreasonable rules. Maybe I'm just too stubborn.
I'll ask others to clarify with the colours this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grandfather, rest well~

It's quite sudden that he just passed away last Monday during midnight although it is not surprising because his cancer acted up again recently. 3rd stage of stomach cancer really no easy for him...
Upon hearing the news at 5am, my family and I went to Batam for him. I could not look at him, whenever I look at him, I'll cry. I broke down a few times hiding at the top floor when he always asked me to play Ping pong ball with him. I didn't want to affect others so it's the best solution not letting anyone see me crying.
Happy memories with him flashed pass made me feel more that he is no longer alive anymore. I remember the first time I have memories(when I was a small kids) I went back to Moro with mum and brother, running toward them while calling ah gong and ah ma and, ah gong eventually carried me in his arm. Countless times spent in Moro where ah gong always cycling me to the hillsides and pick fruits like rambutans and coconuts, and when I was too big to sit on his bicycle, he bought me a bicycle and we cycle together there.
There was once when ah gong was in Singapore, he brought me out to walk but both of us ended up losing our way and took the police car back home(that's my house but I'm too young to know how to get home) haha

I'm sorry ah gong, that I ended agreeing with youngest aunt than convince her to go matchmaking when you asked me to help to convince her to go matchmaking last time. Ah gong once told me that he worries that youngest aunt will be alone and have no one taking care of her when she's old, and that he wouldn't be able to see her getting married. So he asked me to convince her to go matchmaking since I'm quite close with her. But still I don't want her to get married for the sake of getting married, I want her to have someone else she's willing to married to and someone who she love, also love her. It's totally okies to be single.

For Ah ma, she have the worst feeling, it's extremely sad for her when ah gong left. Ah ma probably wouldn't be able to go back Moro to live again, since ah gong left. She have so much freedom and have something to do in Moro back then...but now she have to live in Batam(city) with aunt and uncle. Hopefully, their house in Moro wouldn't be sold away and demolished...

On the day when the cremation was over, I felt terrible... looking at the ashes and bones of ah gong...
and the staff just break and crash his bones into small pieces using wood. How does one bare to look at this scene.. just it's just impossible. I couldn't stay there at all that I went out of the cremation room.

On the brighter side, actually, ah gong is fortunate enough to only suffer from cancer last year, he have enjoyed his life for 70+years already. A 30+years man beside him, also died of cancer but his kids is still so young...
Hopefully everyone can get out of this sadness soon...

Life still goes on and we all have to move on. I'm perfectly fine now and living well~